I'm at school...again. Only ONE DAY LEFT.
I did pretty well on my presentation for Global Health on Tuesday and everyone in Photojournalism seemed to like my pictures for the final(six pictures that tell a story).
Now all I have to do is turn in my journal, take some notes for the written final, and then it's off to get Jason so we can finish moving. It's funny, it's technically my weekend but it doesn't feel like a weekend at all. And somehow EVERYDAY that I go to school I see the van that delivers stuff to my work(Cafe Yumm) and I gotta tell ya, it ruins my mood!
Speaking of Cafe Yumm they changed their hours so we will be getting cut quite a bit. I talked to my boss and she is willing to work with me on the hours but I also told her I might just need to get a second job.
Got some wonderful news about Jason's uncle yesterday. For those of you who don't know he is in very serious condition and currently in a coma but is making small steps of progress everyday. I found out at work yesterday that Jason's Uncle Ty actually smiled at his Aunt and looked right at her. She was so excited and happy and I knew I had to tell Jason. He was moved to a few pathetic tears and my mood was completely uplifted. I love seeing him happy and I love giving him good news, he deserves it:)
Other than that I am ready for winter break, Christmas festivities, and settling into the new apartment for the long winter ahead.
I'm sitting at school waiting for the minutes to drip by.
I have finals in BOTH of my classes due today and then it's off to work...I'm so very nervous.
Which is probly why I am at school an hour and half early and yet I don't know what to do with myself. I just want a little time off to decompress and catch up on my sleep.
It's been a rough first term back but the finish line is in sight.
I need a hug, and maybe some ear warmers.
Oh well, they have my favorite coffee here, and things can't be great all the time, and sometimes life just isn't fair....
Oh Thanksgiving, where I hang out with my family all day just to eat for 20 minutes. Where I see relatives that I only see once a year as we scrounge up things to talk about. Football is a must while pictures are out of the question.
Don't get me wrong, I love my family. I just feel like no one gets me...and they probly never will.
I just want my Jason back. I want to be in Eugene in our little home and I want to nestle in his arms and kiss his neck and have everything be the way it was.
I want to watch whatever is on our two pathetic, static-filled channels and play chess over a crappy beer.
I want to make a large dinner of Top Ramen and water and whatever else is in the kitchen and talk about how good we are going to have it someday...
Life is too short to live someway to please someone else. You need to do what will make you happy. Otherwise nothing will ever be worth it...
I'm feeling a lot better today. Could be the fact that I'm not at work or it could be the fact that I'm sipping on a Henry Weinhard's Blue Boar(my favorite). All I know is my cold is slowing disappearing, and the house smells like pumpkin pie.
My heartstrings are still getting tugged on by all that awaits me when I get back to Eugene, but for now I don't want to think about it.
Jason and his family are most likely coming back up tomorrow. They have been down in San Francisco under some very tragic circumstances so my parents and I invited them to the house for Thanksgiving dinner. Me and Jason's parents have yet to meet, but given the recent events that plague us all it should be a piece of cake. I really hope they come, they could use a night off...
I've never been so happy to be home and I don't really want to go all the way back to Eugene tomorrow. Money is tight, work sucks, school is almost over which means finals, and we still have to finish moving. I'm just a little worn out...
Oh well, Thanksgiving is tomorrow which means good food, and lots of laughs.
Hope everyone has a good one!
~Kylie
There's a ringing in my ears, no...wait, it's more like a buzz. A kind of numbing cotton drop that's bouncing around in my head. So much information is flying at me. Good news, bad news, nothing is ever just news anymore, and I'm not entirely sure what to do with it all.
Store it in my head? Well there's just not enough room in there for that...
Oh geez, I'm just so sad, overwhelmed, excited, and scared. I feel as though my life is taking me for a ride and I'm no longer in control...
Plus to make all the stress a little more hazy, I'm sick. Not pukey, fever, chicken broth sick, nah just a particularly nasty head cold. My head feels like it's in a vice and they're trying to make the ends touch.
On a happier note, I have TWO A's in BOTH of my classes! I was so freaking proud of myself!
We also went and saw BAYSIDE last night and had a wonderful time, but it all seemed to be a little spoiled by all the sad events that Jason and I are trapped in. I will post an entire blog about it but certainly not on four hours of sleep at 1:30AM.
Well I think I've worn my heart on my sleeve enough for one post, good night all.
~Kylie
