For My Comic Book Lover

Hehe just something fun I made for Jason since he is such a massive fan of comic books:)

A Bleeding Brain and a Bruised Heart...

I am not sure what to say although I am inclined to write. My headaches have increased so severely that I have them more often then I don’t. I finally went to a doctor at my school for it and she was very sweet and reassuring. I thought for sure they would immediately stick me on meds which is what the last University doctor I saw tried to do. At the time I was bound and determined to stay off a daily drug regimen but my opinions have changed. I am looking at this as more of a stage or phase rather than a lifelong decision. Some people need help dealing with day to day life for a little while and then they go back to functioning normally on their own. Tomorrow I will be speaking to someone. At first I was extremely weary. As I said, the last doctor I saw wanted to put me on drugs immediately. I walked out of her office and never went back and I’m in a much better part of my life than I was then. So what could possibly be the problem?

The doctor I saw yesterday and I spoke about what has changed in the last few months that could cause these stress headaches. The only things we could come up with was A) School has been out since the beginning of June and truthfully I adore school and B) I have lost many friends this year and endured many heartbreaks. I feel as though my brain is bleeding and my heart is bruised.

Our decisions to fix this include:
~ journaling everyday, every last thought as much as possible. If it’s on paper, perhaps it will not be in my head as much.
~ having my posture evaluated.
~ seeing a dentist about grinding my teeth.
~ de-stressing, meditation, and relaxation.

All in all I feel…the same. Still hurting, still not wanting to get out of bed, still not wanting to do much of anything or see much of anyone. The only thing that has changed is the tiny ray of hope that has shined through and that eventually I will feel better. I must remember that while Eugene has thrown me a few curveballs there are people who love and care for me.