This sad lover lost their way...

Full of doubt and about to pout

Are we really where you want us to be?

It's been so long, so far and hidden

Is this who you want to be?

IF you say yes, I'll silence it now

These feelings filling me with guilt.

IF you say no we'll have it out.

I'll bring her up like I always do

Fighting and screaming til we can't breathe.

I just want you to be happy...

Even if it's not with me

I just get worried...that you could do so much better than me

Little Heart Ring

Protect me

Little heart ring

Keep me safeAs I dream

Keep my secrets

Safe and sound

Steady my pulse

When it starts to pound

You remind me of him

You've bound us as one

For over a year now

With plenty to come

You mean so much to me

Little heart ring

Thank you for being here

To remind me

That my real heart

Belongs to my one and only

An Un-snow Day!

Hello all two people who read this:)

I've been crazy busy with school, work, and getting rid of the holiday mentality.

School is great. It's going to be an even tougher term than the last one but I am so very excited to be moving toward my goal.

Unfortunately my plate has been full with books and stuff for school that unleashing my creativity seems to be impossible. Hopefully I will find a higher paying job soon allowing for more free time:)

On the bright side my Jason got a great new job at a bank. I'm so very happy for him. Today was his first day of training. He looked so handsome in his suit and tie. He was pretty nervous but I have the utmost confidence in him:)

My birthday is this weekend...I'm pretty excited. More excited about having a reason to have my whole family(Mom, Dad, Sharna, Eric, and my beloved) all together and having a great time. They're all so wonderful...

Well I feel like I have rambled on long enough. Hope all is well:)

Love is...

Love is...
Patience, passion, and trust
Sweet kisses with a little lust
Jealousy is a guarantee
Sadness will wear on me

Love is...
Impossible to count on
Difficult to find
True love is rare love
And requires precious time

Love is...
Beautifully spontaneous
All at once, overwhelming
You'll question it's purpose
And eventual belonging

Love is...
Saddened by the day
And doesn't like to be bound
If it's lied to
It won't stick around

Love is...
Invisible
Powerful
And exists...
Only as the soft glow between two,
Me and you
It's always a day late,
Thanks to fate
But given the opportunity
It's so worth the wait

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Oh what are we to do?

Us passionate people...when we are sad and low....and the only person who can make us feel any kind of happiness again....is the only person who feels ten times worse than we do.

What are we to do?

But wait for a hand of comfort...to reach into our darkened lives...and stroke the side of a sad, wet face

I'm so lost
I'm so gone...

Selfish

I find it so hard to believe that people are filled with enough selfish views that they would be willing to take advantage of a friend, but I'm finding it more true everyday.

There is a friend of someone close to me that I have tried very hard to like and made an effort in being polite to them. Just when they start to inspire the smallest amount of trust in me I find this person burned by their friend's self-centered ways. It just seems like every favor they do for someone or every kind act is hiding something much uglier that will eventually benefit themselves.

I have LIVED with someone like this and I have to say, it's a very hurtful and distrusting road. You learn that you can't trust everyone and not everybody has the same goals as you.

Some people are trying to reach out to people around them while others are looking for people to latch onto. Some people are trying to better their own lives in the long run while still doing something for their community while others want to find the fastest way to money, fame, and whatever else the center of the heart truly desires for the moment.

It all makes no sense to me, but I truly care about this person so I will be keeping my mouth shut until I'm needed to pick up the pieces...

Yay!!!

It's finally here...that's right....

I'm all done with finals! Woo hoo!

It's been a tough first term back between working full time, moving, family problems, and holidays. I'm so happy that I stuck it out and so so very excited to get started on next term. After a short break of course.

Thanks to everyone who encouraged me and knew I could do it:) (Mom, Dad, Sharna, Jason, Kay I love you all)

Hope everyone is having the great, although rainy, day that I am having!

Now it's time to go home and celebrate:)

Insignificant

I feel so...unnecessary. So unnoticed.

Like no one cares or wants to care today.

I woke up to dousing rain in a warm bed. One of those mornings where I should have known better than to open my eyes and begin fulfilling my responsiblities.

Two of the closest people to me didn't care to be in my company before my eight hour shift of hell. I suppose it's normal for everyone to feel unappreciated and simply overlooked every once in a while but it also seems so unfair.

Then I take a step back and examine my own actions and how they may or may not come off as unappreciative. How come I am allowed to be critical of the ones I love?

After all...they are human.

Bare in mind, the smallest gesture of compassion usually has the biggest impact.