Bitter-Sweet January

I'm always slightly bitter about my birthday. In January no one can do much and not a lot of people WANT to do things since the holiday season just passed. Luckily my parents came up for the day! I showed them where I went to school and then we took a trip out to Pfeiffer Vineyards for wine tasting! It was really lovely.

We went to dinner with my boy and some close friends which was really really nice:)

Unfortunately I had a bit of a meltdown the next day (yesterday) when I got a C on an assignment that I had worked on for several hours. I began to feel hopeless and like for the first time I couldn't handle this school thing. After some tears and reassurance I have begun to recover. I texted my guy for some comfort and that's exactly what I got. He said I just can't be too down on myself and everything will be fine. He also told me to listen to "Wake Up" By Coheed and Cambria because it would remind me how much he loves me<3 He really saved me yesterday and he has no idea:D

Bittersweet January has left me feeling slightly worthless again. The daily headaches, constant tiredness and all the stress weigh me down to the point that I'm not sure how I find the energy and drive to keep going. I know I will find a way to cope and live with the stress that my life brings me. It's just a matter of how and when...

"If I were to die today, please remind me to say, that these hardships have formed me and I am melting away."

Wake Up by Coheed and Cambria

I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this I wish, you could've seen my face
In backseats staring out, the window

I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever

I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you)
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I loved you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Wh-Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up