Life Has It's Ups and Downs

"All of us who labor in the arts know that it can be a lonely existence. We often find ourselves living a life of solitary dreams, disconnected from others, and driven by a vision that no one else seems to value or share. On some days, this can become overwhelming. We then thirst for a single voice of understanding that will reach into our solitary lives and reassure us that the path we have chosen is worthy, and the rewards it offers are worth the loneliness it entails."
~Kent Nerburn
Bemidji, Minnesota
January 2000

Been having a rough time lately. My 18-55mm camera lens got hurt at the coast so I had to send that off to Irvine to be fixed today. They will charge me because there is sand in it which means the consumer is at fault.

The last few weeks have brought a bout of health problems for me that I haven't experienced since working at the animal shelter. A weak immune system and germ-filled environment had a lot to do with my problems back then but I can't seem to find the cause of my new issues. Constant stomach pain and headaches plague my days along with a nasty cold that I'm still getting over. I think much of it has to do with stress but I'm also worried that something more serious may be wrong with me. Unfortunately the health problem as well as the stress problem are somewhat personal and leaves me with little options of people to talk to about it.

On top of that I have lost so many girlfriends this year. I still have my guy who is one of my best friends along with our other best friend but both are boys and have interests that tend to differ from mine. I need a girl/woman that I can trust with my secrets but so many have shown me they are unworthy. For now it will all have to stay inside.

I have been trying to stay busy, with photos and writing my book. It's been rough, this summer. Financially, occupationally, socially, and physically but in the end we humans always pull through. More than anything I wish I had time for a dog. To come home from a crappy day and be greeted by a big happy face that wants nothing but to be by your side, a dog to hold your secrets and put a smile on your face, a dog to protect you and devout everything to you. That is what I want and need.









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